Today, I learned that it’s not flowers and hearts everyday but It can end as normal as it was if both of you chooses to. One mustn’t leave one alone - balance is a very much important key.
Feels like all the uncertainties are slowly coming back. Natatakot na naman ako…
Seeing sunsets makes me appreciate life - its like the universe is spilling some good good art above the sky. But having this kind of scenery with you makes me appreciate it more. You and sunsets. Lovely.
I Wanna Hold Your Hand - The Beatles
Sometimes knowing doesn’t make everything feel alright. The notion of it, most of the time, makes us feel sad and empty and… . There are things that we dread to know and wanted to find out - it maybe based from word of mouth or from our own experience. Curious people will always be curious and the sad thing there is that we cannot help but to keep digging just so having the thought that we know.
Today, knowing makes me both sad and happy and I don’t exactly know if which feeling should I indulge in first.
There comes a time in between the good and the bad wherein you feel doubtful and uncertain about things that you are doing or the feelings you are having. I have trust issues. I know I have already said it a gajillion times maybe on my past posts, sorry, but I have to type it again and say things about it not because I am bragging or gaining sympathy - everything that I currently am dealing with today came from that: Trust.
Someone told me that having that kind of experience was traumatic and really sad. Yeah it did. It might have broken people’s heart, or some would’ve done a few wrong things before finding the right track again but for me, it’s just sad. It took time for me to leave all the bad feelings behind but I never forget. Never. Because forgetting means erasing all the memories and the lessons it taught you. All the emotions you had felt even if its hurting will be erased and if it does it might happen again in worse.
Things happen lately. And I’m shocked that my issues had never gotten the way. Well, I do over think a bit but it’s not the same anymore - not heavy as what it was before. I know for sure it’ll come back when something triggers but I’m glad I don’t have it today and for the next days, i’m sure. It’s good. I’m good.
This maybe early to say but Thank You for shattering the wall. You know who you are. :>
Nov. 21, 7:55p
We say I Love You to everyone everyday but really does one know the real meaning of the word? Or does one know that that word comes with great responsibility?
How would you know if one should take the word so serious? Is it dependent on who said it, how they said it, or when they did?
How can someone prove that the use of that word could be the foundation of a real commitment? For instance, a play boy had met his match, do all the efforts and said the magic words - if you were the girl, would you believe him? Does saying the word could prove and justify all the action?
I think people nowadays say I Love You too much and too soon. They use it for the sake of saying it. For odd reasons, sometimes people just do it to try and make use of the words as support for all the actions one does. Casanovas say it in spark because they know how girls are real fascinated with fairytales and happy endings. Girls fall hard on the notion of having their own prince charmings and good endings having the bad evil witch killed beforehand they get married. (The cause and effect of watching too much telenovelas and reading too much romance). But hey, i’m not saying that everyone musn’t believe in the latter. I am a sucker for cheesy stories and surprises but I kind of not like it when it is all about me. Soon, maybe.
But really, how can one know if its real? A simple question but is very tough to know the answer.
Okay, I think I read too much ‘Art of Seduction’. Makikipagkwentuhan muna ako.