I have trust issues, I admit. If in any case you had doubts on reading me, go away, I’ll be fine. If you’d like to stay, I will accompany you whole heartedly. Just know that if ever in the future you might think I had doubts on what you say or do, always remember that I had warned you in the first paragraph of this post. I am a matter of taking a hard risk. But i’ll assure you, in whatever result you might end up getting in, it will all be worth it. Oh, you’ll know in the process that I always go for happiness.
When you realize you are attached too much with the present that it makes you forget and leave the past behind and yet you have no intention on doing so. How come clinging onto something too much can produce feelings and realizations like this. I know I didn’t forget but I know too that I stopped keeping track. Maybe its the same with the other since I got no whatsoever. But hey, maybe its time to go back a little and take it all upfront. I’m a little scared and uneasy but let’s see…
I realized I would always be missing something. That no matter what I did, I would always be missing something else. And the only way to live, the only way to be happy, was to make sure the things I didn’t miss meant more to me than the things I missed. I had to think about what I wanted, outside the heat of wanting."
How We Met And Other Stories (David Levithan)
We sat on the side walk one night as we munch on some chips and crackers. I was telling you this one story I had experienced way back. We always talk about the randomest things and it is never a surprise that we did that night.
"Are you happy?" I asked you. "Yes. Why? Are you happy?" "Of course. I am eating plus I have you here." It surprises me still when sometimes I do say things in full of cheese. So after a few seconds, I looked at you. I wanted to see a reaction. And then there.. I saw you in your slightest and cutest smile. And in that moment, I knew for sure that I had found someone worth keeping.
I think the so called ‘changes’ that we see and feel came from the choices we made and are making. These choices can either came out from an impulse or from a tough decision making but whether it came from either of the two, know that you do things in accordance with love and happiness. If suddenly you are not happy on where you are right now or in what situation you are dealing with today, it maybe because the things that makes you happy or the things that you do in order for you to be in that situation right now isn’t what you need or are not what makes you happy anymore. Now you have to choose again - to either continue it or find the things that would make you feel complete. In whatever you do, things will change for sure. It may not be you, but the things surrounds you will. It’s just a cycle, really. Life is a cycle. And we are the ones who’ll make all of this ride worthwhile. Let us never be afraid of change or of choosing whatever. You know what they say, “Do more of what makes you happy.”
Good Morning! And now I have to sleep.
Take her to a a fancy restaurant once in a while - make her feel that there is a need to be fancy, still. It will surely make her feel special.
Take her to a carnival at 12am - dance under the moonlight, below the glowing lights of fireworks.
Ask her if she likes ice cream - buy a gallon of her preferred flavor, indulge under the striking sun below a tree. Let her read you one of her favorite books, listen. Understand.
Take her somewhere near the bay - run near the shore, dance in the water, lit a bon fire, eat marshmallows.
Make her a playlist - the one with songs from her favorite bands. Make them your favorites, too.
Hang out with her - take her to places she haven’t gone in a while, eat like there’s no tomorrow. Make her feel loved.
Watch movies with her - watch her cry during sad scenes, listen to her laugh, stare at her once in a while.
Hug her tight - especially at times when you feel she needs it the most.
Love her - make her feel appreciated, always. And if she loves you back, take care of her heart. You are a one lucky bastard.
You’re the only person I thought that could understand everything. What happened? Why this?